Lessons

relationships among people are the most complicated stuffs I've ever met. it's very hard and rare to achieve relationship of 2 persons which is mutually equal. Unevenness always occurs but i think it's fair. One would probably possess 2 kinds of people around - people whom he's willing to give more even he receives less from them, and people whom he's unwilling to give even a small amount but he's able to get much more from them, physically and mentally. I would always hope to get much from people whom I'm willing to give much but it can hardly satisfy me for most of the time. I would happily admit that this's not a good thing especially when I'm  learning to be more independent. A little conclusion to me is that I should start realizing the downside of needing people to be with me when I need emotional support, and after then I should learn to handle any kind of emotional problem by my own without any help from others so that the chances to be disappointed can be reduced. LOL

I'm learning hard to live better, lesson by lesson. :) HARU HARU

When stress's going to conquer you, the things that can cheer you up are getting more and more difficult to be came across.

ways of leading life

It's good to have friends who travel much or are just back from long holidays if you didn't have the chance to enjoy the same thing. I've heard and gotten much information from them when they shared their stories with me and somehow I could fully feel the amazingness too (like I've been to the places too). 

It isn't extremely disappointing or really bad thing for me for not getting any chance for exchange during my 4-year uni life. As through my trip from Shanghai I fully understand that I'm seriously not prepared yet. I'm the kind who need extremely much preparation, mentally and physically, in everything. Like maybe 2 or 3 years ago I would never think of going travelling, because of some stupid reasons - I hate the bad feeling after long trips when I have to pull myself out from the awesomeness during the trips and back to reality. This kind of feeling can simply kill me. I didn't know that how much can a person gain from a trip, even a short one. I would just think that trips are only for relaxing purpose. :/

Come to uni, getting more and more friends around me started thinking and talking about going somewhere to backpack, or going for student exchange etc. Friends were applying for exchange - going Hong Konng, Taiwan, China, Europe etcetc and I did the same too. I wasn't sad for not getting it ( I applied for Hong Kong programme). I just simply do not know what I can earn from these.


Friends coming back from long exchange programme, life's target's changed. I think this is the biggest change / earning that I can see from them. One's world would become wider when he's seen the real big world. And I understand something - one who do not have good level of character quality would not know how to truly appreciate and understand every single thing that come into during the travelling, and they would not know the real way of travelling.

I went to Shanghai. I enjoyed much but I admit that I'm still lack of something to accept and treasure things that Shanghai's able to give me. Yet I know somehow it did make me a little bit stronger for the coming years and I DO LOVE TRAVELLING! <3  However, I've yet to have sufficiently good level of character quality to go for any long trip, yea the long kind, and to make the trip worthy. When I'm prepared I would definitely go for it as I know the thing's gonna change my entire life.

Oops, I must be tougher too :)
Can't wait saying hello to Taiwan <3 Sisters. Hope it's sure kays sisters.

what should a lady think about?

getting hot figure, earning enough, getting good gpa, having good romance, hanging out with friends around, improving own mind, fashion brands, some kind of luxury goods, learning to cook and bake,mixing and matching outfit for the day, getting back to home, hanging out with family, travelling overseas.

get everything done and fulfilled, aint any other lady. :)

how much do I look forward to all of these.




















I'll be there






















and there




















I'll be able to make this.




















I'll meet him somewhere one day.


























I'll get enough girly stuffs like these.





















and get all these conquered


sing a song dance whole night. I am a girl who dream pretty much. understand me and bear with me

haliluyahhh

bamboo
smart phone T^T
trip to Aus
semi pro camera


46kg :O
long hair ORZ

gentle reminder

nie
tuition
business
account balance

new house
mse
myself
french
gpa
sister


no more slack slack ok babe

身旁

大学里面也是有很多好朋友在身旁。虽然说是不像以前中学那样每天都粘在一起。也不一定说要认识很久。是缘分阿。是注定的啊。

身边很多突然发现的好人。

我相信我身旁的每一个人哈哈。每一个噢。噢噢。

好啦，算不算我身旁的人又是另外一回事了。



很多东西不是你想要得到就能得到的。不容易的。
ps 是肥了的。，

YEA

I'm back.

我觉得要让自己活得像个人就要先学会如果控制自己的情绪。我很早就听过这个道理但是总不愿相信自己的失败原自自己的情绪管理出了问题。好啦，可能不需要用到失败这么严重的词，我整体生活还算顺利，那些让我情绪出问题的就是顺利之外的小例外；

我从小就算是顺顺利利关关过兵来将挡的。没有志向没有远见但就因为随波逐流所以做的事情也还大致上算‘正确’。有心而且愿意花钱栽培的爸爸妈妈加上我的小聪明和好学的性格，造就我什么东西都学过一点会一点那样，要表现的时候还是有东西show的；

我还不知道什么叫失败。

OK就因为这样--我成了温室的小花。24degC < x < 26degC (跟我不错的朋友都知道这个是我不会complain的温度range)。无论在什么方面，我都输不起。读书(好这个上了大学我说服自己放弃了)，感情，友情，待人处事，甚至很无聊的画画唱歌跳舞，我都输不起。可笑的是明明就没有很厉害干吗还输不起。

跟我有过什么什么的男人都知道我有多么的输不起。

就因为输不起，我把每一场‘比赛’--OK可能它不是比赛--都看得很重很重。在这每一场'比赛'中每每有一点小差错或是落后对我来说都是很大的打击。因为我小时候很少落后，更不要说是输；

OK其实小花也很有多种，也是有豁达的小花的对吗。打击过后豁达的小花可能大哭一下就开心去阿Q了。很可惜我不豁达，我是很情绪化很戏剧化的小花。每一场打击（给蚊子咬）都会严重的影响我的情绪，我会EMO会DOWN会乱想乱说话会忧郁症，久久不清醒（很久）；

就在我忙碌的把时间贡献给MR EMO, MRS DOWN, AUNTIE乱想,UNCLE乱说话和MISS Universe --- MISS忧郁症的时候，我错过了我身边多少美好的事物；我浪费了青春
就在这些MR MRS AUNTIE UNCLE & MISS Universe的催化下，我的世界越变越复杂，复杂得很空洞。然后让我输不起的事情越来越多，落后的也越来越多，打击也越来越多...

到最后我也站不起来了。




OK好其实我现在还会站，因为我的家人，还有周围的朋友。我到事情的最后总会很幸运的被拉起来，虽然整个过程费时又费力；OK不过这样的事情会反复发生然后我浪费的时间也越来越多。美好的事情转啊转的，见我不会欣赏也就转转转转走了；

OK趁现在我是站着的。就学习怎么平复自己。
周围的每一个小分子否是我能量的来源，我可以看到它们就滚滚滚得滚进了我的呼吸。我知道这样我好像又长大了。这是多么美好的一口气:)

就好像早上我喝了一杯很香很浓的奶茶，
然后我发现我和Uncle很自然的聊了起来，
经过落地窗发现今天的马尾扎得不错，
照镜子看见一颗新痘友好的跟他说Hello,
再很随意的走进两间Audition Room就嚷嚷出来了，
。

我觉得这也是幅美好的画，不是吗？



坏心情，你走了你走了，就算你来我也懂得要怎么让你乖乖快快离开:)


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ohya, shanghai :)
ohya, I LOVE to SING :P
ohya, i like myself.