keep thinking...

这篇不是埋怨文!

Finally I've really started thinking about my future I hope it ain't too late(?) And thru this I found that I don't really have any significant interest or strength LOL and I don't even know what my final target of living is. It's serious problem but I know it would never be too late to start looking for it. So I did really spend timing to figure out WHO I AM WHAT I NEED WHATS MY TARGET WHATS MY RESPONSIBILITY ETCETC. However the outcome is not there yet. It's ok, I don't mind giving myself more time. I have one more study year.

There are many many different saying about these things. Some would say what a good student good child must do is to set parents and family free from earning and bearing the burden ASAP (?) Some would say if family do not urgently need your financial support it's not a must for you to get a job ASAP after graduation (?) Some would say no matter how interest is the 1st thing to consider when looking for job....(?) Oops there are way too many.

I used to believe the very first whatever saying that I come across and I would stick myself to it no matter if it suits my case. I am always lack of my own thought and following others blindly :( I think that what I've known are always too tooo tooooooo little to make good decision and eventually to lead a good life of mine. It's ok it's ok...........I know it then I can solve it !! Before I can get myself orientated in somewhere, I should learn to believe and understand myself, as well as my need. Noone else can know me better than I. And there will not be any good model for me to exactly copy and apply to my life. HEY this is MY life kays.

(I used to try to find a good model and intend to copy exactly. How stupid I am.)

Don't panic I keep telling myself, It would never be too late. Slowly slowly, don't hurt the little tiny brain that I used more in studying instead of thinking any other stuffs.

It's ok, It's Ok. Must get rid of my laziness and earn $ for Taiwan trip :)

I have friends and family around. blissed