3-Day Diet Menu

Since December 2012 after final exam I went home, something told me I have to start dieting. arh not what something, my mum lar. She was so shocked seeing me when I went back home, so plump. I was 54kg then, right after my final exam. I was around 51-52kg before that, I suppose it is all because of the KOI that I had almost everyday. Some more I would always like to have the LARGE one (else NOT SHIOK).

btw i know i know, no matter 51-52kg or 54 are considered VERY NOT SLIM ady. haha..

During December holidays, nothing much has been done, since I was at home all the way, I was still 54kg. sibehfat fuck. Then when school started around mid Jan, I started my strict diet. 1200kcal per day + lotza cardio, xtraining and treadmill, when it went to night I just went jogging at track. btw I enjoyed those exercise but not the 1200kcal everyday. (some girls can easily take less than 1200kcal everything if they only take 2 meals, but the thing is I am not those who could sleep long hours everyday until skipping breakkie. 3 full meals to me is very essential so 1200kcal to be divided into 3 meals is considered challenging.) I was once down to 51kg, using 1200kcal + cardio. btw i tried 郑多燕 too, omg the figurobic (with mat) is killing me I can't even do half set of it.

yea 51kg (my dream kg is 43kg), okie lah at least it is a very good effort and result withn 1 month. However the bloody hell stuff came when it came to CNY. I was seriously starved everyday (oh my appetite is huge no kidding, since i was young), and when I went back to home OMGOSH all those 年饼 were just everywhere, so much variety. OMFG I didnt care anything and just ate like SIAO since i think i could just cut a few KGs after that.

dangdang dang I went back school after CNY hols with bloody 54kg again. And what happened then? FYP  intense lab work came. haha. no more strict diet no more exercise. (ok lah, once awhile, a day or two perhaps). I started having abnormal eating habit by eating lotza lotza lotza junk food eg bread biscuits biscuits biscuits biscuit ok lah the main thing is biscuits. After 3 days stuffing myself with biscuits then I will have 1 day strict diet to bring me back (mentally, at least). I had some sort of eating disorder I think. I just cant stop thinking about what food I shall have all the time. I admit that I do love any kind of food, but this time this has gone too far. I seriously think i need counselling. Then my KG was fluctuating between 52kg -54kg (sometimes after meal, 55kg). The thing is, I have changed my diet too abruptly, my body became very insensitive to the amount of food i have taken as well as calories that I burn during exercise. Losing weight became very hard to me. I have to overcome the eating disorder and then put myself back to the exercise track again.

Okie, now right, I think i still have some sort of eating disorder when my determination collapses. haha. ya days ago when I was having my last few papers in school (i think 6-8 May), I had biscuit biscuit bread bread diet, until super full that kind. So i assumed I was 54kg on 9 May, assumed.

Okie, then I think I got no excuse not to go on a serious diet as I have no more exam no more lab work (except FYP presentation lah, that 1 okie la should not be made an excuse). I start announcing about my diet stuff to ppl (not on fb yet LOL scared) so I won't have any excuse to retreat. (and also BYEBYE EATING DISORDER)

Days ago, I discovered a famous diet menu in Taiwan which lasts only 3 day and claims that it could reduce 4kg in 3 days. This sounds exaggerated. I looked for reviews and found that generally people can cut at 1 - 3kg using this menu without having big change of the food and amount inside. Then I started it on 9 May 2013 and I did some small changes.

Here comes the menu:

I did not have any vanilla ice cream bcuz  I could not find it in school. I do not want it too, haha. hmm, generally I had slightly more than these in the menu, really slightly. I use a few pieces of pork to replace tuna can and hotdog. Basically these food is not filling to me at all, especially lunch. Look at the lunch on Day2, it almost killed me. What I did is to delay my lunch to around 2pm which is nearer to dinner lah. HAHA. Dinner is fine if sleep earlier, but i didnt, so...suffer lor.

Dang dang, today is the 3rd day, I really have to 谢天谢地 as I really completed it without eating much more. (Oops, just now during dinner I had extra 1/2 cup of oats, cuz I have to stay up late for presentation  preparation). I cant wait to weigh myself right after dinner then....52.5kg!!! This is encouraging, people, as the more accurate weight should be weighed tomorrow morning (which will be lighter) instead of right after dinner. I think I could go less that 52kg tomorrow morning. C:

I will start my round 2 on 14 May after resting for 1 day and this is way easier than what I expect. I will do it along with exercise too. I expect to go less than 50kg by 18 May. I will be visiting Vietnam on 18 May for a week. If i could go with <50kg, I seriously hope that I can come back with less than 1kg weight gain. CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL. Then finally, I hope I could say bye bye to 5Xkg FOREVER.

HELLO 4Xkg!!!! C: C:

我开始减肥！

我在这里默默宣布我现在正式开始减肥... （啊哈哈到底开始多少次了啊啊啊哈

神经病

wish list for now:
1. new specs
2. Kanken bagpack
3. Bamboooo!!
4. Pipa
5. laptop
6. Phone Case
7. Bottle

when I have made conclusion

时间很紧迫不过我总是没有要读书的心，来到第四年才愿意承认自己真的不是什么读好书的料。在现在这个地步我怎样的成绩结果都会接受了! 哈哈不强求真的是尽力就好，然后我的日子有好好过就好。

最近常常在自己总是追求完全公平等的坏习惯中碰到小钉子。其实真的也不是什么很大件的事情（在我看开/放弃以后真的这么觉得，虽然在那之前我是非常难受的）。我真真学会了不去在意不愿意在意我的人。真！的！没有热脸就不会有冷屁股，非常讨厌冷屁股。

然后承认自己最近真的很罗嗦。明知道说过后会吐血并且非常后悔，我还是很爱以hey this is for your own good 的出发点循循善诱的告诉别人一些事情（我愚蠢地以为会受到关注/我太高估别人&自己)。老实说，到现阶段，我真真的看清事情，然后不会在自己去抹一鼻子灰了因为这些乱七八糟的事情根本对我不会有什么影响的阿！！！我在那边紧张生气不爽什么。想说，不管是什么角色，如果自己不愿意小小努力一点哪也没资格要求别人做你想要别人做的事情啊！如果一件事情涉及超过一个人，那么每个人都应该付出平均的一点来让大家每一个人都开心满意觉得受到尊重啊。我以前也是倔强自恃高不屑别人说的话但几年过去了我看到了自己的丑陋我有真地开始学习，一点一点地，最重要的是当有状况发生，我学会了先反省一下自己而不是先怪别人，因为我很懦弱的害怕没有朋友:)我觉得有条件不用反省自己的人只有不怕没有朋友的人!（真的有这样的人的！）

也没有觉得自己说得一定对可是不吐不快阿！哈哈哈。最后呢我心里有了个小结论。

:3

光有感觉光有嘴巴是没有用的。

那么大一个人了自己想要的是什么都没有办法好好清楚地告诉自己。是因为雨很大所以我才会在这里。

如果真真因为看了伤心戏心里就那么难受那到底有什么东西是我可以/愿意承担的。我不断地在抱怨，不过很多时候我都会提醒自己，把别人的最糟最糟的状况想像一遍，我会豁然开朗。

然后雨更大了。

我心情是很郁闷没错，最近

常常觉得好多好多乌烟瘴气的东西堆在心里，说不出原因只觉得我应该是真的没事的吧！ I am just feeling so so so stuck. again,不要强说愁啊年轻小孩

--我对什么都失去信心了。靠自己ba，我会知道更多的，时间一过，手上捉有东西的是我啊。 是我自己选择的我不要伤心 I know I'm blessed.

it popped

That feeling returned to me. Do you believe. I sense it, without knowing what it would be, whom would it be. Hello please come to me, i would like to know, please stay here

keep thinking...

这篇不是埋怨文!

Finally I've really started thinking about my future I hope it ain't too late(?) And thru this I found that I don't really have any significant interest or strength LOL and I don't even know what my final target of living is. It's serious problem but I know it would never be too late to start looking for it. So I did really spend timing to figure out WHO I AM WHAT I NEED WHATS MY TARGET WHATS MY RESPONSIBILITY ETCETC. However the outcome is not there yet. It's ok, I don't mind giving myself more time. I have one more study year.

There are many many different saying about these things. Some would say what a good student good child must do is to set parents and family free from earning and bearing the burden ASAP (?) Some would say if family do not urgently need your financial support it's not a must for you to get a job ASAP after graduation (?) Some would say no matter how interest is the 1st thing to consider when looking for job....(?) Oops there are way too many.

I used to believe the very first whatever saying that I come across and I would stick myself to it no matter if it suits my case. I am always lack of my own thought and following others blindly :( I think that what I've known are always too tooo tooooooo little to make good decision and eventually to lead a good life of mine. It's ok it's ok...........I know it then I can solve it !! Before I can get myself orientated in somewhere, I should learn to believe and understand myself, as well as my need. Noone else can know me better than I. And there will not be any good model for me to exactly copy and apply to my life. HEY this is MY life kays.

(I used to try to find a good model and intend to copy exactly. How stupid I am.)

Don't panic I keep telling myself, It would never be too late. Slowly slowly, don't hurt the little tiny brain that I used more in studying instead of thinking any other stuffs.

It's ok, It's Ok. Must get rid of my laziness and earn $ for Taiwan trip :)

I have friends and family around. blissed

Lessons

relationships among people are the most complicated stuffs I've ever met. it's very hard and rare to achieve relationship of 2 persons which is mutually equal. Unevenness always occurs but i think it's fair. One would probably possess 2 kinds of people around - people whom he's willing to give more even he receives less from them, and people whom he's unwilling to give even a small amount but he's able to get much more from them, physically and mentally. I would always hope to get much from people whom I'm willing to give much but it can hardly satisfy me for most of the time. I would happily admit that this's not a good thing especially when I'm  learning to be more independent. A little conclusion to me is that I should start realizing the downside of needing people to be with me when I need emotional support, and after then I should learn to handle any kind of emotional problem by my own without any help from others so that the chances to be disappointed can be reduced. LOL

I'm learning hard to live better, lesson by lesson. :) HARU HARU

When stress's going to conquer you, the things that can cheer you up are getting more and more difficult to be came across.

ways of leading life

It's good to have friends who travel much or are just back from long holidays if you didn't have the chance to enjoy the same thing. I've heard and gotten much information from them when they shared their stories with me and somehow I could fully feel the amazingness too (like I've been to the places too). 

It isn't extremely disappointing or really bad thing for me for not getting any chance for exchange during my 4-year uni life. As through my trip from Shanghai I fully understand that I'm seriously not prepared yet. I'm the kind who need extremely much preparation, mentally and physically, in everything. Like maybe 2 or 3 years ago I would never think of going travelling, because of some stupid reasons - I hate the bad feeling after long trips when I have to pull myself out from the awesomeness during the trips and back to reality. This kind of feeling can simply kill me. I didn't know that how much can a person gain from a trip, even a short one. I would just think that trips are only for relaxing purpose. :/

Come to uni, getting more and more friends around me started thinking and talking about going somewhere to backpack, or going for student exchange etc. Friends were applying for exchange - going Hong Konng, Taiwan, China, Europe etcetc and I did the same too. I wasn't sad for not getting it ( I applied for Hong Kong programme). I just simply do not know what I can earn from these.


Friends coming back from long exchange programme, life's target's changed. I think this is the biggest change / earning that I can see from them. One's world would become wider when he's seen the real big world. And I understand something - one who do not have good level of character quality would not know how to truly appreciate and understand every single thing that come into during the travelling, and they would not know the real way of travelling.

I went to Shanghai. I enjoyed much but I admit that I'm still lack of something to accept and treasure things that Shanghai's able to give me. Yet I know somehow it did make me a little bit stronger for the coming years and I DO LOVE TRAVELLING! <3  However, I've yet to have sufficiently good level of character quality to go for any long trip, yea the long kind, and to make the trip worthy. When I'm prepared I would definitely go for it as I know the thing's gonna change my entire life.

Oops, I must be tougher too :)
Can't wait saying hello to Taiwan <3 Sisters. Hope it's sure kays sisters.

what should a lady think about?

getting hot figure, earning enough, getting good gpa, having good romance, hanging out with friends around, improving own mind, fashion brands, some kind of luxury goods, learning to cook and bake,mixing and matching outfit for the day, getting back to home, hanging out with family, travelling overseas.

get everything done and fulfilled, aint any other lady. :)

how much do I look forward to all of these.




















I'll be there






















and there




















I'll be able to make this.




















I'll meet him somewhere one day.


























I'll get enough girly stuffs like these.





















and get all these conquered


sing a song dance whole night. I am a girl who dream pretty much. understand me and bear with me

haliluyahhh

bamboo
smart phone T^T
trip to Aus
semi pro camera


46kg :O
long hair ORZ

gentle reminder

nie
tuition
business
account balance

new house
mse
myself
french
gpa
sister


no more slack slack ok babe

身旁

大学里面也是有很多好朋友在身旁。虽然说是不像以前中学那样每天都粘在一起。也不一定说要认识很久。是缘分阿。是注定的啊。

身边很多突然发现的好人。

我相信我身旁的每一个人哈哈。每一个噢。噢噢。

好啦，算不算我身旁的人又是另外一回事了。



很多东西不是你想要得到就能得到的。不容易的。
ps 是肥了的。，

YEA

I'm back.

我觉得要让自己活得像个人就要先学会如果控制自己的情绪。我很早就听过这个道理但是总不愿相信自己的失败原自自己的情绪管理出了问题。好啦，可能不需要用到失败这么严重的词，我整体生活还算顺利，那些让我情绪出问题的就是顺利之外的小例外；

我从小就算是顺顺利利关关过兵来将挡的。没有志向没有远见但就因为随波逐流所以做的事情也还大致上算‘正确’。有心而且愿意花钱栽培的爸爸妈妈加上我的小聪明和好学的性格，造就我什么东西都学过一点会一点那样，要表现的时候还是有东西show的；

我还不知道什么叫失败。

OK就因为这样--我成了温室的小花。24degC < x < 26degC (跟我不错的朋友都知道这个是我不会complain的温度range)。无论在什么方面，我都输不起。读书(好这个上了大学我说服自己放弃了)，感情，友情，待人处事，甚至很无聊的画画唱歌跳舞，我都输不起。可笑的是明明就没有很厉害干吗还输不起。

跟我有过什么什么的男人都知道我有多么的输不起。

就因为输不起，我把每一场‘比赛’--OK可能它不是比赛--都看得很重很重。在这每一场'比赛'中每每有一点小差错或是落后对我来说都是很大的打击。因为我小时候很少落后，更不要说是输；

OK其实小花也很有多种，也是有豁达的小花的对吗。打击过后豁达的小花可能大哭一下就开心去阿Q了。很可惜我不豁达，我是很情绪化很戏剧化的小花。每一场打击（给蚊子咬）都会严重的影响我的情绪，我会EMO会DOWN会乱想乱说话会忧郁症，久久不清醒（很久）；

就在我忙碌的把时间贡献给MR EMO, MRS DOWN, AUNTIE乱想,UNCLE乱说话和MISS Universe --- MISS忧郁症的时候，我错过了我身边多少美好的事物；我浪费了青春
就在这些MR MRS AUNTIE UNCLE & MISS Universe的催化下，我的世界越变越复杂，复杂得很空洞。然后让我输不起的事情越来越多，落后的也越来越多，打击也越来越多...

到最后我也站不起来了。




OK好其实我现在还会站，因为我的家人，还有周围的朋友。我到事情的最后总会很幸运的被拉起来，虽然整个过程费时又费力；OK不过这样的事情会反复发生然后我浪费的时间也越来越多。美好的事情转啊转的，见我不会欣赏也就转转转转走了；

OK趁现在我是站着的。就学习怎么平复自己。
周围的每一个小分子否是我能量的来源，我可以看到它们就滚滚滚得滚进了我的呼吸。我知道这样我好像又长大了。这是多么美好的一口气:)

就好像早上我喝了一杯很香很浓的奶茶，
然后我发现我和Uncle很自然的聊了起来，
经过落地窗发现今天的马尾扎得不错，
照镜子看见一颗新痘友好的跟他说Hello,
再很随意的走进两间Audition Room就嚷嚷出来了，
。

我觉得这也是幅美好的画，不是吗？



坏心情，你走了你走了，就算你来我也懂得要怎么让你乖乖快快离开:)


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ohya, shanghai :)
ohya, I LOVE to SING :P
ohya, i like myself.

标题很烦

我真的是一个很小很小的人物，心里想的总是一些很小很小的事情。其实很多时候烦躁的源头只是那一个小小的东西，然后会扩散扩散扩散，扩散到整个生活。其实源头也只是那么小一丁点。

小时候我总自命不凡，认为自己总比别人厉害一些，有志向一些。渐渐地，我发现是相反的。我向往暂时的安逸，不愿为更大更远更辽阔的事物付出，没有目标没有志向，没有推动力，没有梦想。

虽然不喜欢这样的自己，却因为懒惰了泄气了烦躁了就放纵让自己缩小缩小缩小缩小到被世界给遗弃。我弯腰将自己拾起，手指一弹飞出经过雾气，然后扑通的掉落在浑浊的沟渠里。我冷笑。

你再伤心吧，继续吧。为了你认为值得的东西。

成长了，好吗？看看你周围的人在做些什么了。不堪。

LOTS OF :c

1. I'm Just too Bored, seriously, and I cannot just do nothing when I am bored if there is somebody.

2. I've helly hackily gained KGs I wanna get rid of the KGssss desperately :c

3. My sis is much slimmer than me now.

4. Super obvious tanning mark on my back. I turn much much much darker after the Desaru trip and I thought I will not turn dark and it does not appear after the trip, it comes out only these 2 days!!! :c

5. I went facial. Painful and i have rougher moon surface now which makes me hate myself :c

6. So now, I am DARK + FAT + PIMPLY

:ccc

Well, I gonna conquer u all :c

Please dont eat, please dont eat, please dont, please dont :ccccc

YOU BULLY ME. ALWAYS.

wat else

I'm very stupid.

Then, what else

初恋之前

我喜欢看那样不知道的喜欢

我喜欢看那样的腼腆

我喜欢那种无知的担心

我喜欢那种不说出来的感觉

之前我错了

把话说白真是少了小情调

对不对

哈哈

返璞归真

你不懂

這世界處處都是不公平
對人不好卻能得到大多數人好的對待的人常出現
整個就是濫好人但常遭人白眼的人也多的是
這是命啊，對嗎。

你不懂得我曾經也不懂
而儅我不懂的時候我卻比你懂得多一樣，那就是--掩飾。
我也沒再説自己掩飾得很好，但我不會做得那麽出面。我希望我是。

你不懂。你真的不懂。

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日子還是很愜意，除了一些令人阿哈哈小事情
心情還是沒什麽起伏的
希望自己能練成長期的心如止水把，不輕易傷心難過，不容易生氣，不對任何東西都有感覺。
這樣可以比較保護自己。

我發現之前我錯了，錯得讓自己難受了。
我對人就是這麽樣，但請不要輕易承認任何關係的定義，因爲根本沒有達到那個程度。
對不對，因爲根本，過了就沒有了。沒有留下些什麽 -- 跟那個是不一樣的。

我希望我的眼底是清澈的，我希望我是。

問我吧，我什麽都會說的，只要我有東西說。

你不懂，相處不是這個樣子的，不是的不是的。不知道就不知道，不要認爲很懂，因爲你不懂。知道嗎？





平平淡淡好味道:D
世界也不需要太多人在身邊，一些重要的就夠了，
有時候也不是很想去應付這些以外的。

也不是每一個人都想應付我。對不對


自己寫的東西自己都不想讀:C
生活太卡，寫文也太卡

the one who keeps complaining about her aching teeth is not a good girl =X